My heart is heavy...
It feels almost as if something is missing...
I don't even know how to express it.
I pray, but am at such a loss for words.
Nothing happened really to make me feel this way
But I can't seem to shake it

I want to cry, but I don't know what for...
So, I lay here...
curled up in a ball...
holding tight to my bear, my bunny, and God's promise...

My heart is so full, so heavy
And yet, no one can see it.
Not one person knows me fully.
And, I guess that's okay.

Maybe I'm just coming to newer realizations...
...that things won't be as I had made them up in my head to be.
And now I must start over.

heck, I don't know.
Jesus, please hold my heart...