I hate that I get jealous and territorial.
I hate that I can't seem to find contentment.
I hate that I let these things bother me
That I let them consume my thoughts.

I feel like I'm crawling out of my skin
That I'm going to explode from the inside out
Like any move I make in any direction will be the wrong one.

I just want to "be" where I am
Not wishing I was somewhere else
Be there. While I'm there. Enjoying the moments I have.
I don't want my mind to be consumed with wishes and regrets and fears.

I need to figure out how to shake this.
I need confidence.
I need contentment.
I need to learn to trust...