my dear friend Megan Mounce sent me a scripture that in the Message version hit me across the face.
" He didn't tiptoe around God's promise asking cautiously skeptical questions. He plunged into the promise and came up strong, ready for God, sure that God would make good on what he had said. "


Romans 4:20
ironic that it's 4:20, too.
I'm gonna be clinging to this one, for sure

I should know by now that talking is pointless.
People will fail you.

now I'm more confused than before.
Whatever.
Self-preservation mode is in full swing.

oh, life, you're so funny...

But even amongst the crappy things that make me want to cry and the stupid people making me almost lose my Christianity (if you know what I mean) there are still the things that make you worth living.

Like, a manager who understands, people as happy to see you as you are to see them, a milk man who brings you breakfast, and friends who love you even though you're messier than a pig in mud.

And there's the hope that not all days are like this.