I was going to post a new blog

But it was too emo.

so. I'll just leave it.

I had that feeling again

I guess it is reliable...

Still not sure how to handle death
but this is one that's not necessarily as much of a home-hitter to me personally
but it hits home to me because it hits home to people very dear to my heart
and I know what emotion and questions and difficulty is coming their way
and I know there is some I can't even imagine...

I'm just so thankful that I know I have Jesus, and that He is holding them so tightly, and that He is comforting them, and bringing them peace, and giving them dreams to help them understand
and that they are strong.
and when they are weak, He is strong through them.

Thank You, Jesus :)

So now, I just pray...

I don't really like this feeling.
I feel like crying, but have no reason to.
Usually when I feel like this, I later find out of someone close to me dying
but I think it might just be from the weird dream I had last night added with reports of friends with swine flu and the bit of fear it holds...

Of course, my mind is going a million miles an hour
and I freak out when I don't have answers
but, how could I get answers if I don't even know the question?

I'll be fine.
I just wish I could take my brain out for a while.

well, I still need to think... Maybe take out my soul--that's the mind will and emotions, yeah, that part.

Give me two days, things should get better