The Jeremy Camp concert was last night.
It was great.
He is super personable and kind and genuine about everything.
You can tell he really cares about every person to come to the show, and that everything he does isn't because of obligation, it's because of heart.
We laughed. A lot.
I got some pretty good pictures. Gave them to his guitar player named Andy, along with my email in case they use them.
I guess we'll see what happens with that. That'd be awesome if they actually used them.
I think that there is a kindred spirit between Jeremy and I.
I understand it.
And I'm pretty sure I had always thought that it would be like this, but it really was.
This was reality.
And I think that when it makes sense to the world, that he'll remember the little photographer from Corpus Christi.
If at least vaguely.
It almost felt like there was a completion last night.
And like a confirmation.
They played Mighty To Save
The show ended at 10:23pm on the dot.
I don't think it was coincidence.
It feels like a Luke 1:45, Luke 2:19 kind of thing.
Saturday, March 26, 2011
Thursday, March 24, 2011
Fact. March 24, 2011
I watch The Today Show every weekday morning.
I try and catch the Channel 6 10 o'clock news every night
And if I can The Jay Leno Show.
Simply because it reminds me of home.
I feel like I'm close to my family when I do
Like there's at least that one thing that's right in the world.
That one thing that's predictable, familiar.
I love my family, and I miss them immensely.
I'm not 100% certain why it is such a strong feeling sometimes. Like right now.
I almost cry out of homesickness.
I was like this as a small child.
Tears would stream down my face anytime I went to camp, and I had to call my parents before bed when I was at a sleepover.
I'm growing up.
I can't always be like a child.
Times are changing
Everyone is getting older.
Maybe that's what scares me.
Ever since I was a little girl, my biggest fear was that something would happen to my parents, specifically my dad.
It really scared the mess out of me. I prayed against it frequently.
And now as I get older, I'm so afraid that something will happen to them out of old age, or stress or something.
I pray against it all the time.
I can't let this fear grip me.
I have to trust in the fact that no matter what happens, God has me in the palm of His hand and will take care of me.
God taking care of me is inevitable.
I shouldn't be afraid.
I try and catch the Channel 6 10 o'clock news every night
And if I can The Jay Leno Show.
Simply because it reminds me of home.
I feel like I'm close to my family when I do
Like there's at least that one thing that's right in the world.
That one thing that's predictable, familiar.
I love my family, and I miss them immensely.
I'm not 100% certain why it is such a strong feeling sometimes. Like right now.
I almost cry out of homesickness.
I was like this as a small child.
Tears would stream down my face anytime I went to camp, and I had to call my parents before bed when I was at a sleepover.
I'm growing up.
I can't always be like a child.
Times are changing
Everyone is getting older.
Maybe that's what scares me.
Ever since I was a little girl, my biggest fear was that something would happen to my parents, specifically my dad.
It really scared the mess out of me. I prayed against it frequently.
And now as I get older, I'm so afraid that something will happen to them out of old age, or stress or something.
I pray against it all the time.
I can't let this fear grip me.
I have to trust in the fact that no matter what happens, God has me in the palm of His hand and will take care of me.
God taking care of me is inevitable.
I shouldn't be afraid.
Wednesday, March 23, 2011
Squeeze the Trigger.
I was talking to a dear friend of mine the other night.
She made a valid point.
One that probably altered my life in a drastic way.
I know some pretty important things about my life
And people have been having dreams about some other big things.
She mentioned that I shouldn't go around looking for it.
That I know it'll happen, so I should just let it happen
Because if I try and figure it out, I could end up making it take longer than it would have or could have.
Instead of happeneing when I'm, say, 30 it would take til I'm 90.
Make sense?
So, I believe God gave me this analogy.
It's like shooting a hand gun.
To get an accurate shot, you want to squeeze the trigger.
You know that it's going to shoot, and that it'll kick, but you want to squeeze it, because if you anticipate it and squeeze too quickly, then you'll jerk and throw your shot off. You might still hit the target, but it won't be as precise.
In my life, and probably in most people's lives, maybe even yours, I need to "squeeze the trigger" so to speak.
I know what's coming in life, but I need to just let it happen
Squeeze the trigger.
Because if I anticipate it and squeeze too quickly, I might still hit the target, but it will throw it off.
It makes sense to me.
Quite a lot of sense.
It's my current map for my life, really.
She made a valid point.
One that probably altered my life in a drastic way.
I know some pretty important things about my life
And people have been having dreams about some other big things.
She mentioned that I shouldn't go around looking for it.
That I know it'll happen, so I should just let it happen
Because if I try and figure it out, I could end up making it take longer than it would have or could have.
Instead of happeneing when I'm, say, 30 it would take til I'm 90.
Make sense?
So, I believe God gave me this analogy.
It's like shooting a hand gun.
To get an accurate shot, you want to squeeze the trigger.
You know that it's going to shoot, and that it'll kick, but you want to squeeze it, because if you anticipate it and squeeze too quickly, then you'll jerk and throw your shot off. You might still hit the target, but it won't be as precise.
In my life, and probably in most people's lives, maybe even yours, I need to "squeeze the trigger" so to speak.
I know what's coming in life, but I need to just let it happen
Squeeze the trigger.
Because if I anticipate it and squeeze too quickly, I might still hit the target, but it will throw it off.
It makes sense to me.
Quite a lot of sense.
It's my current map for my life, really.
Tuesday, March 22, 2011
interesting
I think it's interesting how people will think we're being super-overly Christian and throwing it in their face when actually we aren't saying a word.
My co-worker just told me about a guy that came into the shop. He was talking about how he was thinking of organizing a chess tournament here, but that this place was too Christian for it.
...first off, how is Christianity a factor in chess?
Second off, and this is something that my co-worker pointed out herself, that she has never heard someone blatantly go up and preach to anyone. Yes, a lot of Christians work here and come here, but there are some in both categories that are not.
And even us that are, we don't go around throwing it in people's faces.
I thought it was interesting that this man was so convicted simply by our presence, and the Holy Spirit's presence in us.
The man is a professed agnostic.
I remember praying for a really tall agnostic girl at camp a few years back. I think about her randomly throughout the year and pray for her. I wish I could find her again and see how she is.
Another thought.
Think of Jesus dying on the cross.
Why did He do it?
Because He loves us, right?
Well, I had a new view of this,
I'm sure it's one many people have already thought
But, it was rather new to me...
A lot of the connotation of why Jesus went through everything He did was out of obligation.
He had to so we could be saved.
But, why?
No one would go through something that gruesome unless they were passionate about what it was they were suffering for.
Jesus is passionate about you. He loves you so much that He chose to go through all of that for us.
He willingly gave up His life because He knew what it meant
It meant relationship with us.
It meant we wouldn't have to suffer
It meant we could have a second chance.
He didn't just leave us
And He didn't save us out of obligation
He saved us because He genuinely loves us.
He doesn't look at our mistakes with shame
He looks at us, who we are, not our sin, not our mistakes.
He looks at us. The ones He loves. The ones He died for.
He sees us for our potential.
He loves us.
See if you can get that image.
Because we so often misconstrue it.
He loves us.
Simple as that.
My co-worker just told me about a guy that came into the shop. He was talking about how he was thinking of organizing a chess tournament here, but that this place was too Christian for it.
...first off, how is Christianity a factor in chess?
Second off, and this is something that my co-worker pointed out herself, that she has never heard someone blatantly go up and preach to anyone. Yes, a lot of Christians work here and come here, but there are some in both categories that are not.
And even us that are, we don't go around throwing it in people's faces.
I thought it was interesting that this man was so convicted simply by our presence, and the Holy Spirit's presence in us.
The man is a professed agnostic.
I remember praying for a really tall agnostic girl at camp a few years back. I think about her randomly throughout the year and pray for her. I wish I could find her again and see how she is.
Another thought.
Think of Jesus dying on the cross.
Why did He do it?
Because He loves us, right?
Well, I had a new view of this,
I'm sure it's one many people have already thought
But, it was rather new to me...
A lot of the connotation of why Jesus went through everything He did was out of obligation.
He had to so we could be saved.
But, why?
No one would go through something that gruesome unless they were passionate about what it was they were suffering for.
Jesus is passionate about you. He loves you so much that He chose to go through all of that for us.
He willingly gave up His life because He knew what it meant
It meant relationship with us.
It meant we wouldn't have to suffer
It meant we could have a second chance.
He didn't just leave us
And He didn't save us out of obligation
He saved us because He genuinely loves us.
He doesn't look at our mistakes with shame
He looks at us, who we are, not our sin, not our mistakes.
He looks at us. The ones He loves. The ones He died for.
He sees us for our potential.
He loves us.
See if you can get that image.
Because we so often misconstrue it.
He loves us.
Simple as that.
In The Air.
Maybe it's just because it's finally Spring
(I love Spring)
Honestly, I'm not sure.
There are just some times when I feel this certain way
And it probably won't make any sense if I try and explain it.
It's a familiar feeling, as I've felt it many times before
But, it's familiar in a different way
It's something that I have consciously felt all throughout my life
And have never really been able to explain.
Like I've felt it, and it's familiar, and even though it's a new day, it's like I'm in a familiar place, and that everything is right and everything will be okay.
There's a sureity that comes with it.
And an encouragement
Almost like there's someone else out there who feels the same way and understands what I mean, and that they are telling me it's going to be worth it.
Like even though things aren't perfect, I can still feel God so close to me.
Almost like I can even see Him smiling
Like I can see Him working in and with and through the people around me.
Seeing everything He's planning unfolding before my eyes.
How even though my life doesn't appear too "impressive" to those looking to be impressed, that I'm doing exactly what I'm suppose to where I'm suppose to.
That everything will prove worth it
Like I can hear that cloud of witnesses.
These are my favorite days.
(I love Spring)
Honestly, I'm not sure.
There are just some times when I feel this certain way
And it probably won't make any sense if I try and explain it.
It's a familiar feeling, as I've felt it many times before
But, it's familiar in a different way
It's something that I have consciously felt all throughout my life
And have never really been able to explain.
Like I've felt it, and it's familiar, and even though it's a new day, it's like I'm in a familiar place, and that everything is right and everything will be okay.
There's a sureity that comes with it.
And an encouragement
Almost like there's someone else out there who feels the same way and understands what I mean, and that they are telling me it's going to be worth it.
Like even though things aren't perfect, I can still feel God so close to me.
Almost like I can even see Him smiling
Like I can see Him working in and with and through the people around me.
Seeing everything He's planning unfolding before my eyes.
How even though my life doesn't appear too "impressive" to those looking to be impressed, that I'm doing exactly what I'm suppose to where I'm suppose to.
That everything will prove worth it
Like I can hear that cloud of witnesses.
These are my favorite days.
Thursday, March 17, 2011
Spare Some Change?
I noticed something today.
How people will buy something that costs $4.59 and hand the clerk a $5 bill.
Or, simular things.
How do we know that we'll get our change back?
Sure, .41 cents doesn't really seem like much of a risk
But what if you buy something for $10 with a $100 bill?
That would be a little different.
So, maybe I just see things in a spiritual way
But, as I watched this happen for about the millionth time today, I saw it in a different light.
The clerk is God, the money is your problems, and the change is just that, change.
When you give God your problems, you can trust He's going to give you change in return.
Simple as that.
All you have to do is get over yourself, surrender to the One who gave you the breath in your lungs and put the stars in the sky and trust that He'll do what He does every time.
It might not be easy at first, it might hurt a little bit, but just like the clerk gives you change, God will help you change and be with you through it.
It's the best thing you could do for yourself.
Trust me,
Trust God.
It's worth it.
How people will buy something that costs $4.59 and hand the clerk a $5 bill.
Or, simular things.
How do we know that we'll get our change back?
Sure, .41 cents doesn't really seem like much of a risk
But what if you buy something for $10 with a $100 bill?
That would be a little different.
When you give the money to the clerk, you trust that he's going to give you the change in return.
It's how it goes. If not, it's illegal.
So, maybe I just see things in a spiritual way
But, as I watched this happen for about the millionth time today, I saw it in a different light.
The clerk is God, the money is your problems, and the change is just that, change.
When you give God your problems, you can trust He's going to give you change in return.
Simple as that.
All you have to do is get over yourself, surrender to the One who gave you the breath in your lungs and put the stars in the sky and trust that He'll do what He does every time.
It might not be easy at first, it might hurt a little bit, but just like the clerk gives you change, God will help you change and be with you through it.
It's the best thing you could do for yourself.
Trust me,
Trust God.
It's worth it.
Tuesday, March 15, 2011
Change the World.
This is something you hear encouraged
A dream most people wish to accomplish
You may have even found yourself as one of the guilty parties wishing this.
I have.
But I never really caught the concept of "The World."
Usually when I think of it, I think of the 6 Billion or however many people there are on the planet right now.
But, what if you could change the world as we know it now
And in ten years
and 30 years later, you're still making a difference
Whether you're here or not.
I guess what I'm saying is that I want to change society.
Yes, that is what I want to do.
This all occured to me as I'm playing my Pandora Jack Johnson Playlist.
The Beatles came on
It had some little information bubble pop up underneath them
And how they have influenced tens of millions of people.
Tens of millions.
That's a LOT.
That's when the thought process went through my head of how they were in my parents generation, but my generation and the generation after me knows them, sings them, loves them, etc.
Even though some of them are gone, and the ones still around are hitting their peaks, what they accomplished in their lives still echoes.
Can you imagine the impact you can have if you have that same effect, but with Christ in the equation?
That's what I want to do.
Maybe this is the life goal I have from a few posts before.
If it wasn't, it is now.
A dream most people wish to accomplish
You may have even found yourself as one of the guilty parties wishing this.
I have.
But I never really caught the concept of "The World."
Usually when I think of it, I think of the 6 Billion or however many people there are on the planet right now.
But, what if you could change the world as we know it now
And in ten years
and 30 years later, you're still making a difference
Whether you're here or not.
I guess what I'm saying is that I want to change society.
Yes, that is what I want to do.
This all occured to me as I'm playing my Pandora Jack Johnson Playlist.
The Beatles came on
It had some little information bubble pop up underneath them
And how they have influenced tens of millions of people.
Tens of millions.
That's a LOT.
That's when the thought process went through my head of how they were in my parents generation, but my generation and the generation after me knows them, sings them, loves them, etc.
Even though some of them are gone, and the ones still around are hitting their peaks, what they accomplished in their lives still echoes.
Can you imagine the impact you can have if you have that same effect, but with Christ in the equation?
That's what I want to do.
Maybe this is the life goal I have from a few posts before.
If it wasn't, it is now.
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